I completely understand your thinking pattern. After being a lifelong Witness, I left the organization on my own about 7 years ago and expected, in the back of my mind that things might fall apart because God would no longer be blessing me (as if he was anyway). A few weeks later I got the best job I've ever had. Full benefits, pension, great people, interesting work etc. Then the economy fell apart a few months later and while thousands were getting laid off all over the City, I got a big raise. I then began to wonder in the back of my mind if Satan was helping me !! I realized that they (JW's) had it set up so that whether things were going well or going badly, you could find a way to blame it on some magical outside force. Other than losing my old network of friends, it's been one improvement after another and little by little the old superstitious mindset is wearing off.
Seven years later, things are still going well but once in awhile I catch myself going back to that old mindset when there's an earthquake somewhere. The years of "disaster preparadness training" will probably always be something we deal with but with time, one gets better at counteracting the old mantras we had cemented in our minds.
I hope things improve for you soon and you won't feel that the universe or God or anything is against you. I've had times when it seems like that is so but then for whatever reason, your efforts pay off. Then just as quickly you can start to see reasons why the universe or God is helping you. I think it's all about persistance, timing and being prepared when some good coincidence happens your way, you're ready to go.